Sunday, August 06, 2006
why did i feel so aloof
when i have so many companions
which at any time is by my side in spirit
wad's the reason?
i feel so unholy
so empty
purposeless in living
i've actually found this purpose of life
but yet ignored it and forsaken it 
that i turned myself blind and deaf again
into darkness where i dwell
dwell blindly, live blindly
like a limp person
i can't move on
and all these things
i searched for the root
the root is myself
in me there is a stirring of negative feelings
feelings without reasons
an induction which meant to poison me
and i din even tried to get out of it
but instead drift with it
and i became so lost
this warfare i'm having inside me
i'm losing
but now i tell you
that i've found the cause
and illuminates my purpose and life
i'll stand up and put up a good fight
and be a victor
no more behind the black veil
no more conceding to this negativity
no more burying my head in my thighs pathetically
reach out for this lamp
the light which fills me up
light which can fill the whole world
that no materials can
all in all
it's to look out from yourself
to God my saviour
