Wednesday, December 21, 2005
hang out, talk shit, play bball, roam the streets, normal as it seems
i smile the same kinda smile
jokes only make me ticklish
there's nothing for me to relish
deep inside me, there's a monster
it eats my insides and i become hollow and empty.. tt's a sucker..
they dunno the things tt i've gone thru
parents divorced, severe depression, living on scrapes, never full..
i'm not a whole
in me, there's a hole
i refuse to share my probs
cover my heart with an impenetrable shield 
it becomes hard, wrung, difficult to be healed
cuz i'm afraid of rejection
wad happens when my frens noe abt all these
sometimes i wonder whether they are really frens
frens won't condemn me right?
i dunno.. dunno.. DUNNO!!!
i'm not a whole
in me, there's a hole
i feel so insecure
drugs, alcohol, smoking... i'm lured
actually, nothing of all these can make me feel better
well.. one good thing is that it makes my life shorter
i feel so damn screwed
i blame every single shit on this world
i'm not a whole
in me, there's a hole
'hey buddy, i'm here to help 
call on me
give me ur heart
open it up
let it be vulnerable
it'll then soften
i'll then fill the hole
with love
and u'll be whole
cast to me, ur sorrows and worries
and i'll give u peace and joy in exchange
ask for the things u want
and i shall give u
let me be in u
let me look after u..'
