Thursday, September 29, 2005
I've finally got back all my results.. Same as usual.. sure sux big time man..
haix.. but one thing is true - that i'm getting a hang of it.. This is the diff between the past and the present: this time, my results sux big time cuz i got alot of careless mistakes and my condition is really not stable enuf to sit for the exam man.. so i gotta train on more papers.. In contrast, my results sux in the past cuz i really dunno shit..
That's so much for some optimism abt this damn prelims, but the most of it is made up of fear and paranoia tt freak me out big time man.. The shit product i get from my input means i gotta work harder now.. hahaha.. is tt meant to be a pun or wad?
Around a month more before my future is in Cambridge's hands.. The hands that determine whether I'm gonna march in damn army or I'm gonna study further.. haha.. But ultimately, it's in God's hands.. Gotta have faith man, u guys reading my blog roger tt? Doubt anyone wld be reading my blog man.. cuz of the negative thingy i've put in my blog which made it so dull.. and also maybe because everybody is mugging right now!! haha.. gotcha man..
This kinda education system sure is stressful man.. the society that we are living in is so stressful too.. The stress are getting a hang of so many people that it cause people to live life for the wrong purpose.. Work, studies, money, politics and wadeva u can think of.... are the very things that blind us from the way of truth.. People live life with respect to the above stated, ignoring the very purpose of life..
So... you may ask.. wad's the REAL purpose of living? Shameful to admit.. that I, myself, am not very clear too.. but i know one thing for sure: the reason to our existence in earth sure gotta do with God! Everything revolves around the Creator.. and that, at least, is a truth to me.. the Creator is the root answer to many questions that people have..
have any queries, pls feel free to ask the Big Guy up there who knows everything.. hahaha..
kkz.. enuf of crapping here man (not totally crap lahx.. still got sense right?)..
Friday, September 23, 2005
Found something this cool somewhere:
There are many things that we can do to perk up and strengthen our interpersonal relationships.Yet the most effective involves the saying of just 3 words. When spoken or conveyed, these statement shave the power to forge new friendships, deepen old ones and restore relationships that have cooled. The following three-word phrases can enrich every relationship.
I'II BE THERE:
If you have ever had to call afriend in the middle of the night, to take a sick child to a hospital, or when your car has broken down some miles from home, you will know how good it feels to hear the phrase "I'll be there." Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give. When we are truly present for other people, important things happen to them and us. We are renewed in love and friendship. We are restored emotionally and spiritually. Being there is at the very core of civility.
I MISS YOU:
Perhaps more marriages could be saved and strengthened if couples simply and sincerely said to each other "I miss you." This powerful affirmation tells partners they are wanted, needed, desired and loved. Consider how ecstatic you would feel, if you received an unexpected phone call from your spouse in the middle of your workday, just to say "I miss you."
I RESPECT YOU:
Respect is another way of showing love. Respect conveys the feeling that another person is a true equal. If you talk to your children as if they were adults you will strengthen the bonds and become close friends.This applies to all inter-personal relationships.
MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT:
This phrase is highly effective in diffusing an argument and restoring frayed emotions. The flip side to "maybe you'reright" is the humility of admitting, "Maybe I'm wrong". Let's face it. When you have a heated argument with someone, all you do is cement the other person's point of view. They, or you, will not change their stance and you run the risk of seriously damaging the relationship between you. Saying "maybe you're right" can open the door to further explore the subject, in which you may then have the opportunity to get your view across in a more rational manner.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME:
Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit their mistakes and ask for forgiveness. All of us are vulnerable to faults, foibles and failures. A man should never be ashamed to own up that he has been in the wrong, which is saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.
I THANK YOU:
Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy. People who enjoy the companionship of good, close friends are those who don't take daily courtesies for granted. They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness. On the other hand, people whose circle of friends is severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude.
COUNT ON ME:
A friend is one who walks in when others walk out. Loyalty is an essential ingredient for true friendship; it is the emotional glue that bonds people. Those that are rich in their relationships tend to be steady and true friends. When troubles come, a good friend is there indicating you can "count on me."
LET ME HELP:
The best of friends see a need and try to fill it. When they spot a hurt they do what they can to heal it. Without being asked, they pitch in and help.
I UNDERSTAND YOU:
People become closer and enjoy each other more if they feel the other person accepts and understands them. Letting your spouse know in so many little ways that you understand them, is one of the most powerful tools for healing your relationship. This applies to any relationship.
I LOVE YOU:
Perhaps the most important three words that you can say. Telling someone that you truly love them satisfies a person's deepest emotional needs; the need to belong, to feel appreciated and to be wanted. Your family, your friends and you, all need to hear those three little words. "I love you."
And how about "God Bless You?"
Thursday, September 22, 2005
the reality sure sux big time man..
u noe u love something and u volunteer to mould the future for it
u initiate, u help, u commit, u dedicate urself into it
for fruitfulness, for people
at the end of the day, ppl took u for granted.. maybe they shld but most probably they are absent-minded.. no appreciation whatsoever.. i'm not saying i do something because i expected something in return from them man.. but it's juz that, in the long run, u'll juz feel that ur work is not appreciated and u are juz the sort of cheap labour or something.. something that is being used.. yes, that's right.. and tht may be the truth.. then end up u are working for something tt u are not working for.. get it?
ya noe in the working world, u are juz being used over and over again till u are deemed as literally useless in some ways or another.. or cuz of some reasons that may compromise ur usefulness.. this kinda thoughts sure is dreadful man.. but u juz have to live with it.. i'm very conscious abt this.. gotta be man.. or else, u may not noe the things that u are doing are the rights things or not.. gotta be sharp and vigilant..
perhaps i'm being paranoid? nahx.. i dun think so.. think i'm becoming more manipulative instead.. there're so many hidden and dark things in the world.. the whole damn world is engulfed in this darkness.. leaders of the world who are SUPPOSED to be ppl of moral bearing are also engulfed by this darkness.. tt's y u nvr noe wad's really the real thing behind many issues..
u noe.. today, i suddenly thot abt y the govt kept on building so many transport facilities man.. when u seriously thot abt it, it can really lead to really many possibilities.. try reasoning it in the perspective of the dark side... ooooh.. haha.. then u will really be feeling damn cool..
all right man.. think we shld always keep an open mind be4 we judge at things and reach a conclusion.. things may be more than wad it seems to be.. or shld be ALWAYS more than wad it seems to be..
ermx.. actually wanna end off with tt.. but i wanna reveal another sad thing.. think it's cuz of the greed and cunning nature of mankind which leads to the truth abt the last sentence in the above para..
Sunday, September 18, 2005
AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!! PRELIMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!! FINALLY CAN ENJOY A DAMN BREAK....
Really damn tired man.. Exams are really a torture to health.. Fuck me upside down..
Think I'll not do well for all the subjects.. Maths shld be able to pass.. Chemistry paper 3 really screwed me up.. For fucking physics, I could only do paper1.. In other words physics really fuck me up, down, left, right, center... GP.. ermx.. as ungaugeable as ever.. To know how u do for GP beforehand is as good as fortune telling.. GP--- GAN PUA cb...
Past few days have been studying very late in bendemeer mac.. come to think of it, some days go there and study until pants drop also no use.. next day the paper so damn hard, might as well dun study and go home sleep... when i was going home late at night, saw damn alot of big fat fucking rats.. quite scary actually.. scared they will bite me and cause rabies.. damn cb.. got one day, got ard 3 or 4 rats roaming ard the ground.. the 2 cats ard also do nothing.. cb sia.. think the cats also scared to mao them cuz the rats quite big.. my dad told me tt be4.. hahaha.. damn jiao wei rite?
I think I seriously suck big time... Hope that the additional time to work till my pants drop will be enough to catch up the standard that I need to get.. Can't always feel like fuck the duck whenever i see a paper.. for ur information, fuck the duck means surprised, not that i wanna go fuck some animals..
have been staying at home and rot yesterday.. only went out of the house once for a meal.. came back 20 minutes later.. wow.. damn long nvr stay at home like tt le.. fell asleep dunno how many times yesterday.. living like a pig sure means some sort of happiness man.. no worries.. juz laze ard... feeling dreamy and everything.. yeah.. sleep and dream..
kkz.. enuf of crapping.. to all ppl, dun let this prelims get u down man.. gotta get up and fight again.. YEAHH!!! FIGHT AND FUCK IT!!!
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
the many songs inside me
resembling so many things
friends, family, love
is there really something as love of your life?
or this is just something to encourage guys to go on a flirting spree, not settling anywhere?
the latter is just an excuse, naive
causing these guys who believe to keep plunging into unhappiness
pick and dump, the rythm of their life
uncontented, can't make up their mind
you have a choice
to choose who u wanna fall in love with
keep this thing going by keep falling in love with each other
this way, it won't become bland and just die off
maybe it's not just something for you to believe but to make it happen instead
this song has been running inside my head for a long time now
is it going to die off?
Saturday, September 03, 2005
things that we've achieved
things tt we've left
the spirit tt we've cultivated
the tradition tt we try to get it going
it's all lost.. all lost..
the story of a guy's record-breaking trophy in school
for the glory and honour for himself and the school
years gone by and the school moved
out of the blue, an old piece of thrash is sent to him
'is this yours?'
it looks so familiar.. it was his trophy!
'found this in a garbage near the old school'
how true tt ur glory and achievements dun last
ppl juz forget when u're gone
and nothing in the past seems important
the treasures that u build up on earth will juz rot away..
how true.. how true..
