Sunday, March 27, 2005
went for bbq invited by the juniors last night.. cuz of the celebration for winning the comp... damn fun.. long time never wrestle with people le.. haha as usual, we throw people into the water... then in the end went home with bloody wet underwears.. hahahaha... reliving the memories of sj...
then this early morning went to church for easter service.. it was a touching service.. preached by a pastor from chile.. i was touched by God... touched by the blessings that He has given me and all other people.. i cried today... oh man.. it's been a long long time since i cried.. i juz cannot control myself.. juz so touched by the love of God, and felt so sorry cuz i juz cannot find time to spend with Him... Juz wanna praise Him..
Hallelujah!
Friday, March 25, 2005
It's so hard to forget
I juz have to accept
this fucked up fated life
Still tangled in emotions
Impossible to free myself
Just continue to be in stealth
I'm keeping myself away
People can know me
but not my problems
Dun like to share it
unless i can't handle it
only turn to my blood bros
I'm like a souless lost roamer
No directions, no soul...
Saturday, March 12, 2005
i thought time will yield forget
but it doesn't seem so yet
the feeling is terrible
the pain is unbearable
especially when she's avoiding me
i'm so hollow inside
like under a dead sky
free as a dead can be
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Lost in emotions
I'm in confusion
Should i just let go
or to keep on going?
I dunno whether it's a fact
or i'm denying myself like a fag?
Were there really feelings
or i had been dreaming?
Why all these crap?
Cuz i'm living with regret
Think too much, waited for too long
Believe those words, forgot that words can change
gave me the wrong impression
led me in depression
Let's get back to my bottom line - other things are more important
So forget about the one in a million that is so like me
I believe that she's for me but it doesn't turn out to be
So I just sit back in one corner
and feel like a loser
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Realised i've done nothing much
That's why we were just waiting for each other
Until a strong gust of wind blown u away
Realised i'm actually not in the game
but merely a spectator manipulating
I just have to accept it
My sillinesss led me into nothingness
just wanna wish that the wind will carry u foreva in happiness
I will be the light that will watch you
When u are afraid, i will always be there to disperse the darkness
but i'm just formless and can't carry u
until u let me and give me my soul
