Wednesday, February 23, 2005
unable to understand
why this change?
are the past memories
of no meaning at all?
ur heart is so hard to fathom
i just dun have the courage
to tell u how i feel
when i feel that time is ripe
fate destroys my hope
it's too late
you've made the choice
i just hope that u are happy
will always pray for u silently
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i only have myself to blame
just think too much
waited for too long
trying to understand you
but now i know
i just need to love you
why bother to understand?
i seldom see you now
becoming distant
your smile seems to have vanquished
are you troubled?
hope not
it pains me when u are sad
i'll be your listening ear
i'll lend u my shoulder
will always pray for you silently
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how i wish that sweet times are eternal
that you are by my side
together by the beach
counting the number of stars
which is equal to my thoughts
and my love for you
people say dreams will come true
but i think that is all crap
if my dreams come true
i will not be like this
dreaming of you for almost everyday
till fate stops it short
this wound is really painful
living with this pain everyday
you are the antidote
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Funfair was so fun yesterday.. haha.. but also damn damn tiring..
woke up early in the morning to go and carry the humongous pails of soya bean drink and beancurd.. damn damn heavy.. think it's even more than 20kg.. wad the fuck man.. haha.. then me and a few other guys are like slogging our guts out man... hahaha..
yup. then set up stall, make drinks and all that.. the soya bean drink is damn nice lahx! haha.. then alot of ppl come and buy... damn busy... then we are like rushing all over the place, shouting here and there.. hahahaha.. make drinks and make beancurd until some ppl like have white white stuffs on their shirt.. oh ya.. we also got sell ice popsicles.. the the guy who was selling the ice popsicles said damn shiok.. cuz all the chio bus come and buy... wahahaha.. never know that being a tao ni man is so fun lahx.. hahahaha.. and oh.. toon pang, fujin and wei siong keep drinking our soya bean.. hahahaha.. in the end toon pang still helps us sell ice popsicles! hahaha.. foreign worker sia..
but still in the end we din manage to sell all our soya bean.. cuz i think we ordered too much.. then u noe wad's the problem now? we have to clear the leftovers!!!!!!!!! that is really torturous man... pour out all the damn soya thingy into thrash bags.. and it's damn heavy.. the thrash bags put around 3 to 4 layers sia.. then some ppl went off to carry the first thrash bag to the garbage bin.. go halfway, the thrash bag broke and spill out on the tracks!! haha.. siao man.. in the end they need to clean up the bloody tracks.. i went to get a trolley to transport the thrash bags of sick liquid.. damn funny.. when we transport up to the trolley, the thrash bag slipped off.. hahaha cuz damn jelly like.. but we still managed to transport it to the garbage bin.. fr fear of breaking the thrash bag, we juz leave it beside the garbage bin instead of lifting it and throw into the garbage bin.. hahahahhaa.. then we were joking that the person to clear this will have to lift it and dump inside the garbage truck.. and there is a chance that it will spill... wahahahahaha.. damn bad..
that's not it.. we still have to wash all the damn containers.. wash until we play water.. hahahaha.. all become wet.. haha.. so long never play like that le.. remind me of the good old days.. anything also play.. hahaha..
for the fitness stalls, really have no comments, cuz damn suck..
after the damn fun fair.. go home le still have to rush out to Lido watch movie with my buddies.. cuz got one of my buddies' birthday mahx... hahaha.. most of the movies like no space le.. then we watch hide and seek.. the show is damn sad man.. battery really flat man.. damn damn tired.. now i have muscle aches on my damn shoulders... xiong man..
but that was one of the happiest days i have since a long time.. very enjoyable.. haha
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Title : Just Wait
Author : samuel
When life troubles you unduly
And you are in a hurry to
Do something new
Just wait - it may not be time yet.
The wind blows where it will
Carrying dust that
It pours on us.
You seem frustrated
But it is a calm resolve that
Will help you to cope
Just wait - it may not be time yet.
The wind blows where it will
Carrying dust that
It pours on us.
Believe, all that is important
Be slow to rush
Fate has its own passion
Just wait - it may not be time yet
The wind blows where it will
Carrying dust thatIt pours on us.
Be still then and hang on
Fret not and no demure
It won't be too long now
Just wait - it may not be time yet.
The wind blows where it will
Carrying dust that
It pours on us.
hmm... so to all ppl who have problems or facing some crisis, hope u guys can chill out man..
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
i have no directions but to just roam around...
searching...
dunno wad i'm searching for but just keep on going..
just keep bumping into something fake..
sweetness at the start but slapped bitterly in the end..
i'm down on luck, blame it on fate?
dunno why i keep on fucking bumping into these things
keep on roaming and hope to bump into something good
no directions so i roam?
or roaming to find directions?
Monday, February 14, 2005
life is not going the way i want
so complicated and it's
full of sadness and disappointments
feel so sick of all these
juz keep on running when i'm pissed
i wanna control my life
lead my own life
detached from fate
but that's not possible
wishful thinking, wishful thinking...
impossible and also wrong
cuz if i control my own life
others' lives will be fucked too
enlightenment dawned
i juz have to follow on
the unchangeable destined route
Sunday, February 13, 2005
I miss u (blink187)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends(I miss you, I miss you)(I miss you, I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Saturday, February 12, 2005
so sianz yesterday.. dunno why.. then went out with moon they all to eat prata last night.. tok cok tok cok but still sianz.. bought beer and drink.. went moon's house and play some ps games.. but still sianz.. cuz i dun play game one.. haha
but never mind.. i will be going to a fren's place to eat in the noon!! hope i wun feel sianz anymore.. haha
Thursday, February 10, 2005
went to grandpa's place at pagoh, Malaysia on the first day of new year.. reached at night.. did nothing much.. sibei sianz.. ate and watched tv only... then sleep le..
then next morning need to wake up early cuz we had a 9.30 bus back to s'pore.. be4 going off, fang4 pao4 zu2 at grandpa's house.. haha.. damn loud!!! this is the thing u guys can't play in s'pore man.. haha..
Realised that my grandpa suddenly has a dog! haha.. dunno get from where one.. but quite cute.. saw alot of freshwater turtles also.. hehe
hmm.. that's it.. nothing much.. oh ya.. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
Sunday, February 06, 2005
yesterday was the first training for my juniors since Decemeber man.. think i was quite fierce during the end of the footdrill training yesterday.. keeping blasting off the leader to get him turning correctly. i even kicked his boots to get him in the correct position. felt quite bad but he finally can turn better now.
oh ya.. hahaha.. one of them tore his pants during footdrill.. damn bloody funny.. there are alot of tearing sounds when he lift up his leg or when he turns.. then when i fall them out and they march off, the guys pants tore like shit man.. can put ur whole head inside the hole i think.. wahahahaha..
Actually the training went quite smoothly. I must say that they are quite obedient and have the urge to learn more and improve.. yup.. so the current sec 4s.. pls go and groom them properly to carry on our generation.. if not the corps will fall man..
seen the sec 4s trained their own footdrill too.. can say that they've already reached the level of near perfection man.. so proud of u guys.. at least u all never throw my face.. hahahaha.. rock it on man.. think u all should concentrate more on the first aid side as it carries more score weight. cuz i think ur footdrill is really good le.. yup weixuan, if u seen my blog, u beta noe wad to do and dun act too slowly man!!
hmm.. juz wanna tell those fitness peeps joining vertical marathon to work hard man.. and elyzzzz, please eat more man, u need loads of energy for ur ultra hectic life man - ur soccer and vertical marathon.. IF GOT TIME PEI ME GO EAT LAHX.. then i can stuff u with good food.. hahahaha.. weiming, u too.. dun always think of basketball.. study is top priority man.. and to my juniors, all the best for your competition! work ultra hard and dun be complacent yeah?
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
these days, i dun noe why
run and run till i drop and die
prefer to feel this pain
than to be lost inside
fuck man. i pulled my muscle
jump and run cuz i wanna escape
escape from the reality
which is filled with cruelty
thought of solutions
but it keeps coming back
fuck man. think it's fun going thru all these repetitions?
feel so sick but i juz have to keep going
I'LL BECOME MAD IF THESE KEEPS ON COMING!
