Friday, January 21, 2005
woo hoo... today holiday man!! finally can relax and get lotsa lotsa sleep!! haha.. so irritating in the morning.. my mum went to off my fan and wanna leave me to die with heatstroke.. had no choice but to wake up at ard 8 to have breakfast.. walked like a zombie.. and my arms are like so weak cuz of yesterday's gym training.. haha..
then came back home and knock out again.. slept from 9 to 12 something.. feel like a pig.. haha.. sleeping is so good.. can forget all the bad things tt happened, totally relax myself, wake up feeling refreshed..
Everyday is a brand new day yeah?
Monday, January 17, 2005
Just wanna replace the pain from the past with something numb..
You know who I really am?
I just pretend everything is what i want it to be..
Smile and laugh when i'm not feeling like it..
This secret is locked inside of me foreva..
This mystery will remain foreva..
No keys can unlock it cuz i've thrown the only key away..
Just lying and running away..
Better than fucking with it without any purpose
Except to let myself feel lifeless
Anyway, that's the past..
Two words for this damn past..
Fuck off..
Live a life man!!
No point getting lost in the nothingness inside of me..
Just gotta let light fill me up again..
but this scar will stay..
there's also another hole to be filled..
driving for miles till i wanna puke..
how long shld i wait till?
Thursday, January 13, 2005
It is easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It is so much easier to run
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I have kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they have played
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didnt have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so thered never be a path
Just watching in the sun
All of my helplessness inside
Pretending I dun feel misplaced
It is so much simpler to change
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
Sunday, January 02, 2005
When you need a thought to comfort you.
If you have some fear
I am your angel there with you.
My prayers are following too.
I'll be there for you.
Saw you this morning, with that look in your eyes,
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely,
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself,
Don't you worry, I hear you, cause I know what it's like,
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind,
Cause baby,
I'll be there for you,
When you need somebody,
I'll be there for you,
When you want someone who cares,
When you're down and feeling blue,
I'll be there for you,
When you call me, I'll be there
