Sunday, October 10, 2004
promos over...
My exams are finally over... The aftermath have led me deep in thought.. Wad the hack have i learnt after this terrible experience of struggling for this freak promos? Life is full of obstacles, and we need to overcome them, not to run away from them... I have been slacking and slacking in the first six months and did not even study for my stupid common test.. this is a fatal mistake that has lead me to this realm of f*cK... yes.. i should have changed my mentality during this transit... but i have not, despite of my awareness of the rough road that i am going to travel.. i have been running away from academic difficulties, refusing to study hard and keep finding excuses to avoid studying...
That was y i was suffering from burnout in a period of time..At that time, i was freaking f*Cking stressed... and the worst thing is, i dun even noe wad the hack was i so stressed about... i keep searching for the reason, but din manage to find.. that was until when i tok abt life with a fren... i talked abt wad i was going thru and she suddenly said this, 'Life is full of obstacles for u to oversome..' then enlightenment dawned on me... now i noe y... it's because i have not been trying to resolve all my problems.. and these problems have accumulate to become massive... and so.. i finally woke up my f*cKing idea and did the craziest thing in my life!! i studied for around more than ten days for six or more hours each day for promos!!!! think it's abit unbelievable and it was f*uKing draining on my health... imagine being stuck in a library freezing and mugging... ermx.. except for some leisure of seeing chio bu?
haha..Think i have changed quite alot in my way of thinking.. but as usual i still haven change my way of speech.. haha... i think i have become more negative in my thinking.. Now i seemed to care more abt the darker side of the world.. the world is cruel, nothing is fair in this world, distrust, corruption, violence are all prevailing in this world.. Everything is relative in this world... not all facts are true... are u sure humans evolved from apes? if u believe, may i ask u whther u witnessed the process of evolution before? if not, y did u believe... hence u shld not believe everything that is taught in schools..
On the other hand, i think that people believe because of the word 'faith'... if u do not have faith, i will not be able to imagine how u are going to live in this world... the absence of faith in this world will lead to complete chaos in the world.. it's like an organisation without a proper system of management...Anyway, i think i have spoken alot of crap... now, it's all up to u to think whther u know abt the TRUTH? A piece of advice... live in ur spiritual world instead of living in the physical world...
i am crapping like nuts man.. haix... why blog cannot write vulgarities... or else can express my feelings better... hahaha
