Sunday, October 31, 2004
I am like very aimless lately.. this morning think damn long on where to go and what to do for today.. then finally i decided to study chinese outside... call my buddy to go also, but he said got something on.. bloody wei chong.. anyway, i called one of my juniors to go play CS.. haha.. i know CS is way outdated and quite lame.. but i really feel like killing some people man, relieve my stress.. haha..
but in the end also never play CS.. end up playing basketball with my juniors.. quite enjoyable though.. haha.. then we went to mac and chit chat.. eh.. but be4 playing i still got study abit of chinese ok... chat finish then go to one of my junior's house. watched wishing stairs and change up.. pei him go mrt station cuz he is chee honging one gal at dhoby ghaut.. hahahaha.. no, it's him who is kana chee hong by a girl.. wahahaha... tradition of sas.. cock sia..
then i went home, really bo liao.. then i went to do some weights.. focus on training biceps.. train until my arms become jelly.. then do some bloody abs training.. sweaty, tired and hungry... tot my family is going down for dinner after i showered.. but still need to wait for my siblings to shower!! haha.. then i was like reading a book while starving.. charles dickens rox man..
finally i went down to eat a scumptuous dinner.. haha.. the zu3 cao3 is power pac man.. haha.. tt's it for my bo liao day..
~the end~
Saturday, October 30, 2004
ok man.. few more days, finish the stupid chi exam, then can really relax abit.. why do i say relax abit? cuz still got bloody fitness!!!! ahhhh.... lord, help me to have the patience to go thru all these..
ok man, think my hair is really screwing up... but still very very lazy to cut. my mood is quite screwed up also.. dunno wad happen to my op and no mood to study chinese also... have been drenched by rain almost everyday...
yah, it's all in the mind.. guess i have to screw something real hard into my head to wake up my whole damn idea.. 'after today, everything will be better' Let's hope so.
this is so freak... why alot of people keep asking me abt finding a galfren for myself? wad the hell man.. haix.. just waiting for the right one to fill the hole in my heart.. so juz fuck care this issue man.. errrgghhh... it's been bothering me like a pain in the ass..
all right all right... after today, everything will be better.... let's hope so.
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
ok people... i think i am feeling damn bloody hot now... there's a person who has some bloody management problems.. he may be testing some of our qualities.. i can accept that.. but sometimes he did it way too bloody much man... like playing with our emotions like that.. asshole.. that's why i hate these people who are trained to manipulate people's feelings... they exploit their abilities on other people.. i went thru this kinda shit be4.. and now it is happening again.. i know some skills of manipulation also thru my experience.. but this CANNOT BE USED TO BASTARD PEOPLE'S ASSES!!
U noe wad man... i even dreamt of having a heated argument with him man... think my violent tendencies are starting to float up again... think i almost wanna whack him in his bloody face.. long time never had violent dreams man... think i beta learn to release these stresses be4 i release it on him..
I hate last minute plans... thru my bloody experiences... things will not be well done.. people will also be really really stressed up... wadeva it is... last minute plans are not healthy to any organisations or a corps... if he wanna test us.. he shld not use this opportunity to test us becuz it is a bloody important thing to settle... a good organisation will need an efficient manager who have good foresight and be able to take fast actions to pass down instructions.. this way, i tell u, everything will be fucking efficient and smooth.. of course, ground people will have to meet deadlines man... therfore, to be able to build a rapport with the ground is important so that all will have the common aim and consensus to achieve wadeva shit.. peopl will have the drive to do wad management wants man.. cuz they trust the management that they have the common view with them, the ground.
oh man... i noe if i cannot control, the consequences will be bad.. in fact i have already foresee the things that will happen.. hope i can avoid all that.. can't believe that i am going thru all these shit again... going thru the same old obstacles in my life.. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! juz have to submit to fate..
Friday, October 22, 2004
Open house open house, really turning me around like mad sia.. as busy as a bee... but anyway, i think it's quite enjoyable also.. Draw here draw there... and i realise i haven lose my drwing skills! hahaha.. although really deprove a bit lahx..
Anyway, have been joking with fitness friends sia... helping the joker eric do up notice boards and open house stuffs. Then everytime when we ended late, we will go to harbour front hawker center to eat some stuffs.. and we are addicted to fried oyster egg!! hahaha.. everytime will go eat with eric, jia ming and andy one.. somtimes got hui han also.. hui han is mad! he is a freak sia!! hahaha.. but he also sometimes is freakily funny lahx.. he will say something that we least expected it.... wahahaha..
oh yah... not forgetting the crescent girls.. sharon and phyllis like to play star wars in the gym when doing the preparation for open house... they will take the rolls of paper or plastic wrappers to whack her whack there.. i also kana whacked... bloody hell.. hahahaha.. and VICKI CANNOT DRAW 'S' PROPERLY!!! hahahahha... then calista was like kana bullied by fujin... hahahaha.. super funny.. and i think sze hui is quite pro in art sia... zai man.. yenmei also not bad.. pro at drawing apples... hahahaha.. really feel damn nice to see everybody working together man.. haha..
haha.. the booth is so scary... weights all around sia... got 40 over kgs stupid bar there.. hahahaha.. joke sia..
oh.. btw, i was running marathon yesterday from my house to school lahx.. cuz i went back home to prepare some stuffs and buy some materials for the notice board(becuz bloody joker eric forgot to buy some materials!!!!).. then i was running all the way to bus stops and mrt staions.. think the only times i din run was when i am in the bus and train..... siao sia... rush hour.. then i reached gym at ard 5.30... really peng san sia... hahaha... then i found out 'laughing sharon' put some funny captions for the photos.. she wrote 'I am single and available' for Mr lim baba... wahahaha.. then baba saw and kao bei... haha.. then we delete the word 'available' and left with the word 'single'.. so anti-climax lo...
haha... enjoy the open house!!
Monday, October 18, 2004
This is so joke... Am i really that beng? wahahahaha... really nothing to write today sia... it really takes a super long time to change my way of speaking and especially vulgarities... wahahaha... too bad, this thing is nurtured long long ago le... guess i will change sooner or later baz... hope so.. haha...
yoz juniors and people out there... SAJC OPEN HOUSE IS ON THIS SAT, 23 OCT 2004... especially my despo hotstuff juniors... come and check it out... wahahahaa...
Sunday, October 17, 2004
played bball with my sec sch buddies for the whole morning again yesterday and then went to play snooker for the first time.. hahhaa... the table is so bloody big and scoring these small balls are really an uphill task man... was so fascinated by the game cuz it is more classy and chim...
felt really happy whenever i am with them cuz we are still getting in touch very often man.. almost every week or so... sometimes come out and eat supper also.. ahha... last friday we went to st george to eat prata... the prata was super nice there lahx.. we ordered a chicken murtabak and a mutton murtabak... they are humongous sia... juz two murtabaks and they can satisfy five people's stomachs le... really fantastic.. haha... only one person never eat the murtabaks cuz he's a vegetarian... hahahaha... as usual we were making fun of him... haha... he ordered two masala pratas... and it also turns out quite fantastic also.. haha... as most of my buddies are from SP, they talked about my friend who died there in the soccer incident... so emotions surge in me again... then i told them how i felt and all that.. eyes become abit teary but managed to control it baz.. haix... anyway, life still goes on and these are experiences that make us think and learn.. yup, treasure ur buddies man... Then they also told me that there were quite a lot of death incidents at SP too... alot of ppl commited suicides.. think recently have a sucide case in SP too... think most of them juz snap off due to accumulation of alot of stresses such as studies and relationships... that's scary man... so people, manage ur stress properly man.. dun do anything silly..
Friday, October 15, 2004
My life sux... why is it so complicated? why can't it be as simple as everyone's else? guess i have to learn to accept wad comes by... I have a damn problem, a serious one.. but i cannot share it... this is so shucks... sorry friends out there for unabling to tell u wad had happened in my screwed up life as it is confidential... I would love to get it off my chest by telling somebody but can't... guess i have to learn to deal with that myself too... Anyway, it has already gone underway for a long time... okie... i guess u guys dunno wad the fuck i'm talking about...
Yup.. Promos results are already out and it doesn't turn out well for some of my friends... I really dunno how to make them feel better as there's already no way to change the results... Just have to say that try to learn to take wadeva that comes by and decides on wad to do next, try to overcome the sadness too... juz have to hope for the best... haix... really dunno wad to say.. i feel really sad for some of my friends who cannot make it through... think the only way is to pray for them?
ren2 sheng1 wu2 chang2.... Life is a story full of twists... All kind of damn things may happen when u least expected it... Real example of my life: kana caught by silas continuosly for 4 days.... this is so freaky man.. SHUCKS!!!!
okie.. let's come to the more positive side... haha.. think i love babies... hahaha today sitting beside me got one cute baby sia... hahaha.. so i did some funny facial expressions to make him laugh... haha so fun... joke man... kkz that's it for my thrashtalking here man...
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Today is so happening.. so no matter how tired i am, i will chiong and blog...
This morning i purposely went late for school just to turn up for the inter-house basketball games.. haha.. then to my surprise, my team managed to claim the 2nd position!!! wahaha.. then get a small silver trophy.. so happy man..
But happiness din last long as there would be fitness training and meeting later.. the meeting is so bloody hell long and sianz... I was like super tired and was stoning throughout the whole meeting!! haha... as usual we kao bei in the meeting about the year end camp again... wahahaha.. so dramatic.. and there is my superwoman secretary, yen mei, speaking like a power-pac lawyer and awe the whole gym sia... wow... haix... in the end, baba came back to the gym and try to jack us back again.. but anyway, i think some of his words are logical and meaningful lahx... but again, i doubt any of us will abandon the idea of cutting short the number of days for the year end training camp.. For me, i was actually neutral in this camp thingy until i heard from the ground.. haha... kana influenced in my thoughts again... anyway, i think i should spend time to think about this issue and weigh things on both sides so as to make a FIRM judgement... Hope u guys will spend time to think carefully about this issue as well... the battle is not over yet.. wahahaha...
Finally, the meeting ended and i was going home.. took bus with 2 buddies.. and as usual i went to roam.. starting point: fullerton again.. i walked and walked... down esplanade, down city hall, then take train to bugis to eat the stupid tako pachi cuz my stomach was groaning like siao... then finally took 133 bus and realise it doesn't go straight to my home... so i took to potong pasir and change another bus to go home... during this roaming journey, my brain keeps ticking.... thinking about the 'happenings' today... learnt that faith and fighting spirit is very important... During this bball comp, i seriously tot that my team cannot win one... but the fighitng spirit of teammates proved me otherwise!! and i was so awed sia!!! haha... magical man.. For the faith part... I think in any organisations... mutual trust is very important... without that we really cannot work sia... so developing mutual trust among a team of people is a MUST... so i really hope baba can learn to do that... cuz today i remembered him saying that we are not processing our thoughts carefully... and say it in such a way that he does not trust our abilities of making decisions.. And i was abit pissed at that time man... but i managed to swallow it... and tried joking to lighten up my damn mood.... THE 3 Rs ARE SO CRAP!!!! wahahaha
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
the death of my very old buddy....
At this time, i was reading Newpaper when i saw a familiar face on the cover page...'SINGAPORE POLY STUDENT COLLAPSES WHEN HIT BY BALL' I went straight to the page to read the article as i fear the worst... Chee Yida was dead while playing street soccer and his granfather, 87, died two days after his grandson's death.... This is a heartbroken news for me... The last time I met him was last year december when me and my old primary school friends met for a steamboat dinner... barely few months and this happened... Though it's been a long time since I met him and we seldom get in touch, i can say that he was a very very caring friend... A great friend indeed... It's a sad loss of such a great friend... I wonder if he noes that i still remember him and care for him.... I hereby express my heartfelt condolences to his family...
Sometimes you may think that you are a very lonely person and may think that nobody cares for you... BUT THAT'S NOT THE TRUTH! There is ALWAYS somebody out there who loves you, who care for you, who think about you every day and night.... Love is in the air... Do not be ignorant of it...
Friends are everywhere, and they are always precious in our lives... we cannot live without friends... Ask yourself, are you taking them for granted? Do they know that you care for them, you are appreciative of them? you know wad i mean.. Need I say more? The bottomline is show them the TLC - tender, love and concern before it's too late... not only by mouth, but also by actions.. Actions speak louder than words...
just wanna say that ermx.... you people are dear to me... thanks for everything....
noe abit mushy, but really really come from my heart... i become mashi maro le lahx... haix...
Monday, October 11, 2004
SA idols
wahahahaha.. today is so joke.. got SA idols today.. i think most of them are really super zai lahx... some groups are really talented and i see some great instrumental players man.. got pianist, guitarists, drummers.. and i think there's 1 bass guitar which is daMn chio... the performance really got on well until the last group came to perform.. super joke.. talk one big round and trying to get high then finally get the ball rolling... once the ball rolls.. all hell broke loose, but luckily i manage to escape - to the toilet my fren also escaped with me and went to shit... wahahahaha... okie shall not be so bad... at least they try their best... shall add a two cents worth of advice: change the lead singer please..
The world is so sad and cruel... FREAK THE TERRORISTS LAHZ!!!! Bomb here bomb there juz for the sake of vengeance.... lotsa lotsa innocents have died.... think last week egypt kana bombed also... wah si bei sianz... errrrrgghhhhh....... when can they wake up their FREAKING IDEA??? how can they be so inhumane??? unless they are all devils....
Lord, I juz pray that u will bring peace to this world... and 'let their intrigues be their downfall. Banish them for their many sins. for they have rebelled against you.'- psalms5:10
Hope all of you will pray for peace in the world....
Sunday, October 10, 2004
welcome...
i am so bloody sian that i created this blog... welcome and feel free to tag..
promos over...
My exams are finally over... The aftermath have led me deep in thought.. Wad the hack have i learnt after this terrible experience of struggling for this freak promos? Life is full of obstacles, and we need to overcome them, not to run away from them... I have been slacking and slacking in the first six months and did not even study for my stupid common test.. this is a fatal mistake that has lead me to this realm of f*cK... yes.. i should have changed my mentality during this transit... but i have not, despite of my awareness of the rough road that i am going to travel.. i have been running away from academic difficulties, refusing to study hard and keep finding excuses to avoid studying...
That was y i was suffering from burnout in a period of time..At that time, i was freaking f*Cking stressed... and the worst thing is, i dun even noe wad the hack was i so stressed about... i keep searching for the reason, but din manage to find.. that was until when i tok abt life with a fren... i talked abt wad i was going thru and she suddenly said this, 'Life is full of obstacles for u to oversome..' then enlightenment dawned on me... now i noe y... it's because i have not been trying to resolve all my problems.. and these problems have accumulate to become massive... and so.. i finally woke up my f*cKing idea and did the craziest thing in my life!! i studied for around more than ten days for six or more hours each day for promos!!!! think it's abit unbelievable and it was f*uKing draining on my health... imagine being stuck in a library freezing and mugging... ermx.. except for some leisure of seeing chio bu?
haha..Think i have changed quite alot in my way of thinking.. but as usual i still haven change my way of speech.. haha... i think i have become more negative in my thinking.. Now i seemed to care more abt the darker side of the world.. the world is cruel, nothing is fair in this world, distrust, corruption, violence are all prevailing in this world.. Everything is relative in this world... not all facts are true... are u sure humans evolved from apes? if u believe, may i ask u whther u witnessed the process of evolution before? if not, y did u believe... hence u shld not believe everything that is taught in schools..
On the other hand, i think that people believe because of the word 'faith'... if u do not have faith, i will not be able to imagine how u are going to live in this world... the absence of faith in this world will lead to complete chaos in the world.. it's like an organisation without a proper system of management...Anyway, i think i have spoken alot of crap... now, it's all up to u to think whther u know abt the TRUTH? A piece of advice... live in ur spiritual world instead of living in the physical world...
i am crapping like nuts man.. haix... why blog cannot write vulgarities... or else can express my feelings better... hahaha
