Friday, May 23, 2008
looming clouds of saddest tears
sounds of despair and the deafening silence
heart's so sick and felt like dying
it's hot out there but felt so cold
here's a man of so much sickness
afflicted by the uncontrolled sins
he turns his palms up and seem to be praying
but in fact it's just a stance of loss
a deep silence, a deep darkness
the soul's filled so much of blight
when hope's destroyed
destroyed by the blighted soul itself
as he lays and zonk out there
pulses of past went pounding through
the wooden stare of bloodshot eyes
into voidness, into.. nothingness
rain falls down hard
and tears flow without a sign
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
it's Christmas, rejoice!
gatherings of warmth
and fervent joy
meetings with friends of deep strong ties
what love, peace and joy on these days!
fine weather and blessings to all
celebrate the birth of Christ!
Friday, December 21, 2007
Today is shopping day with my dearie!!!
i was like a santa carrying all the stuff..
no complaints though.. hahaha..
dearie.. love u la..
this is real mushy.. viewers, once u see this, feign ignorance. Thanks.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
I struggled and climbed
out of the cave
i felt i was gonna die
dying from the rot and blight
the dim light shone from nowhere
when i came around
from the dark obsession
a miracle, that's it
and i grabbed hold of it
the struggle became of ease
as hope came back
darkness in me dispersed
as the light carries me through
hope, love and faith.
Thanks.
Long period of darkness
that negates my life
lose myself
to the ways of old
i've been so blind
my heart's covered
with a callous shell
the darkness just keep growing
swallowing all hope
life goes nose dive
down down down it goes
into the horrid abyss
into the darkness
the darkness which people love and hate
i dwell in such a cave
cold but cosy
fond of the hideous place
for it shields me
and i shield it too
i became a creature
with such dangerous air
hate, anger and depression devours me
slowly i fused..
fused with the cold, dark cave...
Saturday, August 04, 2007
messed up
fucked up
so screwed up inside
i'm so in a mess
stuck in a distress
Distress, i dun even know wad the hell is that
perhaps it's a noise
that keeps ringing inside
perhaps it's a parasite
that chews me inside
ring me, ring me
i'm going insane..
chew me, chew me
eat me, fuck pain..
i dunno wad's the cause
my mental, it's been cost
i just dunno, dunno wad to do..
i'm stuck, so stuck
like stuck in a quicksand
slowly sinking, sinking
buried in mud,
the noise is still ringing,
the parasite still chewing..
Sunday, June 17, 2007
alot of times i may seem indifferent towards u
but well...
i'm not indifferent.. i cared so much..
it's just the numerous limitations..
that they have hid the image of my heart - from you..
I was helpless too..
What i do is just to believe..
and try my best to try to do something... yes, something..
Hanging on to faith is what i've always been doing..
It's like having on-and-off paralysed limbs
I hate it, but i'm trying
For a long long time, it has been a walk way too messy..
A dark walk.. A fearful walk..
There's no light, but I just carry on walking.. Instead of stopping and wait for the sun to come again..
Thank God.. Light came for me again..
But I realised... I've been walking backwards in those dark days.. I'm back... Back to the starting line..
Let's go now.. For there's the light to guide me the way in front..
Let's focus my sight to the route in front and go towards the finished line..
Along the route which I believe will be filled with trees and rivers, and beauty.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Orange moon hung low above the waters
the black ocean stretches out endlessly
tapestry of shining stars over head
gentle blowing breeze
how beautifully said?
but the sight is mundane
how numb have we become
to the daily scenic beauty
how inappreciative are we
towards the little things in life - some think it's trivial
take things for granted
cursed to our oblivion
leads to no time are our destruction
Impudence, ignorance;
our lives are blighted
perhaps death
is an escapism of infernal earth
